Day 11 (denied for 4 days)
Yesterday was a rather tiring day for me. Princess woke me up at 8.15 (as usual) but since I had gone to bed at 3 o’ clock the previous night, I asked Her if I could sleep for one more hour and She granted. While I was in the office I thought about it again and I felt the obligation to thank Her. It was strange, normally I wouldn’t even ask, I would just say that I want to sleep and that would be it. But now, not only did I ask, I also felt grateful by Princess’s approval. I decided to send Her an instant message, in order to thank Her formally. She didn’t say that there was no need to thank Her, or something. Instead, She said that She could understand that I needed more sleep and that’s why She did it, implying that if my request wasn’t fair She could have rejected it. I find all this authority that Princess is gaining over me very exciting.
I was in the office from 10am to 9pm, so when I went back home I was more than tired. Princess had already cooked dinner and, after we were finished, She also did the dishes by Herself. We didn’t discuss about it, but I know She did it because She knew I was tired. And, to be honest, I didn’t mind at all. I enjoy our new lifestyle but it’s not always feasible for me to be responsible for everything. I like the fact that Princess is becoming more and more in charge of what I’ll have to do and when and how I’ll have to do it. And it’s great to know that She won’t abuse Her authority over me. Princess is a wonderful person and I would never open myself to Her if I didn’t know already that She would be able to handle the whole situation with maturity and sense.
After the dinner we decided to watch a movie. Princess asked me to remove my underwear so She could have access to my private parts. Then She sat on the opposite side of the sofa, raised Her feet towards me and asked me to lick them and massage them during the whole movie! I did so with great excitement, little did I care about the plot anyway. While I was occupied with one foot She used the other one to pet my dick, and the opposite, keeping me erected for the whole duration of the movie. There were times when I really wanted to cum, but Princess was removing Her foot from my crotch each time She heard me moaning for release, living my cock throbbing in the air. At some point, I desperately wanted to go down on Princess, but She didn’t let me. So, I had to deal with whatever was allowed, and, although I admit that I prefer Princess’s pussy, under the given circumstances, Her toes were an excellent dessert!
Day 10 – Flashback #2 (denied for 3 days)
After we came back from our summer holidays this year (late August) we spent two whole weeks without having any sexual intercourse. At the beginning of the second week I was already in my familiar submissive state and I was trying to carry out each wish Princess might had. Princess, on the other hand, was enjoying this part of me, as She always does, so I can say that it was one of those periods when everything is perfect. Considering the constant good mood of Princess, I begun seriously thinking that this might be the right timing to talk to Her openly about everything. Whenever I was alone I was trying to gather my thoughts and prepare my words. I was feeling very excited by the possibility of talking to Princess, but, on the other hand, each time we were together I was becoming extremely nervous and I knew I just couldn’t let the words run out of me. Princess noticed my anxiety and soon started asking what was going on. On Sunday evening, I told Her that there were some very serious things that I wanted to say and that I wasn’t able to say them face to face. So, I excused myself and told Princess that I had to go to my office and write Her an email. This was the only way to express my feelings.
I remember writing drafts, erasing words and sentences, then changing my mind and starting all over again. It took me more than 4 hours to write two single pages! It was midnight but still I couldn’t go to sleep. I was reading the email, moving the cursor over the “Send” button, then reading it again. I was satisfied with my words, I was saying exactly what I wanted to say, but, still, I was nervous and uncertain whether I was doing the right thing. I was worried because I didn’t know how Princess would react, She might think of me being a freak or something, She might even dump me. Eventually, I decided to send the email and go to sleep.
The Email (just a small resume)
I was beginning by explaining the reasons why I hadn’t talked to Her about all these things before. Then I was telling Her two things: One, that I was probably a masochist, one of those people who seem to enjoy pain. Second, that all I wanted in my life was to serve Her, to surrender myself to Her completely, that I wanted to be trained to be Her servant, that I wanted Her to own my body and my mind and do whatever She might wish with them. Finally, I was making clear that I wasn’t expecting anything from Her, that all I wanted was to express my feelings because She had every right to know about them.
I know I could have been more diplomatic, I could have used different words, I could have been more abstract. But I didn’t want to keep wondering whether She had understood my points or not. I wanted to be sure that after She would have read my email She would know exactly the things I wanted Her to know.
After I went home next evening we sat on the living room to discuss about all these. Princess was smiling and that could only be a good sign. I knew She wouldn’t dump me and that was enough to take all my pressure away. I really didn’t care if She was willing to try or not, I was happy only to know that, after all these years, I had finally found the strength to let Her know everything about me. We discussed for many hours, Princess was trying to clarify things because She couldn’t believe the things I was telling Her. There were times when the whole conversation was becoming very embarrassing for me, I had never thought about it this way. I was sitting right next to my girlfriend, confessing how much I wanted Her to be my owner, giving me orders and instructions, making rules for me to follow and punishing me whenever necessary. My face was as red as an apple and there were times when Princess’s eyes were telling me that She was enjoying my humiliation. She soon started making me say things that She knew would embarrass me, She was repeating certain questions only to see that flush on my face while explaining them to Her. The last thing She said was that She was very happy with our relationship as it was until then, but since this was something that I wanted so much, she wouldn’t mind trying. She wanted me to be happy and if serving Her would make me happy She would be able to find some advantages for Her as well (big smile). I was in heaven, I believe that this was one of the happiest days in my whole life.
During the first weeks, things were rather awkward in our relationships. Princess was trying to change Her behavior, to give me orders instead of asking, to be more strict, more bossy but it was obvious that She was mostly faking it. I was thinking of talking to Her, tell Her that maybe She wasn’t ready for such a change, I didn’t like seeing Her pretending someone else only to make me happy. But soon things started to change. It all felt more and more natural and Princess was obviously enjoying certain things. She begun appreciating the fact that She could have me do things for Her, gaining some more spare time for Herself. She stopped ordering me, which wasn’t coming out very normally to Her, and started just asking things and assigning me tasks. She started by making sure that I wouldn’t neglect my responsibilities and, eventually, begun assigning me some of the tasks She had to do all by Herself (mostly chores).
Our sexual life also started to change. She begun these regular sessions of teasing and denial, which She finds so amusing today. Then, there were times when I would go down on Her and satisfy Her, then She would just fall asleep, or watch TV without bothering with my hard-ons. At some certain time, I wasn’t allowed to cum for a whole month! I soon started giving Her full body massages as well as worshiping Her feet. That is something She really enjoys and there are times when She has me lick Her feet and suck Her toes for more than an hour. One day we talked about buying a pair of handcuffs from the internet. I placed the order and also added a small whip. Princess didn’t want to keep the whip in the beginning, She thought of it as being too kinky, or something, so I suggested that we could keep it just in case She might find it necessary. She used it on me the same night we received the order, and it has become Her favorite instrument of punishment until then! There have also been times when Princess spanked me or whipped me just for the fun of it.
But the one thing that Princess has been enjoying the most from the beginning of our D/s relationship, is to humiliate me. I’m not talking, of course, about extreme humiliation, like sissification, spitting, strapons, pee drinking and all these stuff that one can watch in hardcore femdom movies. But I know She loves it whenever She sees me on my knees cleaning the bathroom floor, or the look on my face whenever She’s mad at me, or having me apologize even when I don’t believe I’ve made something wrong. She loves how I thank Her even for the simplest grants, like today when She let me sleep for an additional half an hour. I know She reads Her blog everyday, smiling at my humiliation whenever I have to share whatever happens to me with everybody. She loves to watch the frustration on my face while teasing me and comment on my silly expressions, and how I hang around Her like a puppy after I’ve been denied. And She adores the times when I call Her my Princess!
In conclusion, although we are only three months in this, things seem to have been moving smoothly. We both feel more and more comfortable with our new roles, She as the dominant Princess and I as the obedient servant. We decided to create this blog, a couple of weeks ago and since then, our new lifestyle has become even more spicy. But I will keep all the details concerning the blog for another post.
Day 9 – Flashback #1 (denied for 2 days)
I opened my eyes and first thing I saw was the most beautiful view that exists on our planet. Princess had just taken a shower and She was sitting next to me naked. She was searching Her drawer for the panties She would wear and She smiled at me when She realized I was awake. She started slapping my dick softly, until it was hard enough for Her taste, and when She was done I hugged Her and kissed Her good morning, then opened Her legs and slipped my tongue inside Her. Princess’s pussy was already wet and that took me by surprise, there was no doubt that She got excited by dick slapping me and I couldn’t help but point that out. Princess just smiled, She got up, grabbed my hard dick and guided me to the bathroom, exactly as She had done the day before. I knew from the beginning that Princess wouldn’t participate on any of these things, unless She found them at least interesting. But as time goes by, I can see that She gets to enjoy the changes in our relationship as much as I do, and it gets me extremely happy whenever I realize that.
Nothing interesting happened throughout the day, Princess went to see a friend of Hers in the evening and got back late at night. She had me prepare for Her something to eat (a small selection of cheeses along with smoked turkey and toasted bread) and went to sleep. So, this is a good opportunity to start a flashback of how we came to where we are today.
As I’ve mentioned before, me and Princess are together for more than 9 years. I had already discovered a part of my submissive nature when I first met Her, but, of course, I wouldn’t even think to tell or imply anything back then. There might be some signs, but they were all concerning our sexual intercourses. For example, Princess was in charge of when, where and how we would have sex, as long as I remember us being together. If She wasn’t in the mood we wouldn’t do it, period, and I’d have to secretly jerk off. If She was in the mood I would always satisfy Her first (usually with my tongue) and then She would decide whether we would have an intercourse or whether I would cum by a blow-job or a hand-job. If we had an intercourse She would alter positions at Her discretion. Moreover, there were times when Princess enjoyed having me lay on my belly and bite my back and belly, which could become quite painful sometimes and it soon became my personal favorite. A few years later, Princess must had guessed that I was rather inclined to pain (at least, that’s what I thought then) and started getting engaged into more and more quite painful acts. One of these acts was spanking, not anything serious, though, just a few smacks on my butt. Later, She discovered that I also enjoyed dick slapping and I still remember Her surprise after the first time I came that way. However, during the time we had our “big” discussion (I’ll come back to this later, with more details), She said that She had no idea that I was enjoying pain, She actually wasn’t even thinking of them as being painful. Anyway, the fact is that, besides what I’ve mentioned, we used to have a totally vanilla relationship for many years.
The first time I gathered the courage to talk to Princess about my kinks was a couple of years ago. It was a period then, when we were both rather stressed with our works and there were times when we would have sex just once a week (instead of 3-4 times which used to be our minimum during our first years). Of course, I wouldn’t wait that long, since I was used to jerking off at least once every two days. However, there was a time when I actually didn’t have an orgasm for 10 whole days (I can’t remember why!!!) and that’s when I first realized the feelings and the beneficial results of orgasm denial. I liked the way it made me feel and I was trying hard to refrain from ejaculating in between my intercourses with Princess. I didn’t stop masturbating but that was more like self T&D, since I rarely came and when it happened it was usually the result of some kind of an accident. Anyway, I was thinking a lot about orgasm denial back then, and one day I decided to talk to Princess about it. I can’t remember the actual words I used to describe my new kink, but I don’t think that they were very successful because Princess thought that it was rather weird, although She said that She wouldn’t mind giving it a try. She tried it the very next time we went to bed. I went down on Her and when She was satisfied She said (in a very impersonate, funny voice) that I wasn’t to cum that night. When I accepted that without complaining, She was surprised and it turned out that She never believed that I really meant what I had told Her. That was the first and the last time She did that (until recently of course).
It’s not that we went back to our normal “sex rates”, though. Instead, I realized that sex was becoming more and more rare, and there were times when we wouldn’t do it for a couple of weeks. What I know now (and didn’t realize back then) is that Princess was enjoying how my behavior was changing after only few days of sexual inactivity, but denying me wasn’t something that could come out of Her easily. Therefore, She sometimes had to sacrifice Her own satisfaction, in order to have a lovely, obedient boyfriend that would make Her the center of his attention. I tried to explain several times that I really didn’t mind denial, that it was something that made me happy, and that each time She had an orgasm I was feeling so full that I didn’t care if I would cum or not. To no avail…
One year ago, I started reading a book from Elise Sutton, called “Female Domination”. During the first chapters of that book there is a part where Ms Sutton describes what a submissive male can do in order to seduce his partner’s dominant nature. I must admit that I disagree with many parts of this book, but I have to declare that it literally changed my life. First of all, I realized for the first time, that talking one day to Princess about my submissive needs was actually an option! And I decided to try and change, in the manner that the book was suggesting, in order to prepare the field for the big revelation. From that moment, I began transforming into a servant to Princess, although She didn’t realize it then. And it was with great joy that I realized that it was paying back, Princess was enjoying my radical change and She was becoming more and more comfortable with it. Until one day, at the end of this summer, I decided that I should talk to Her…
I won’t go into further details about what has happened during the last three months, but I do promise to continue my flashback tomorrow.
Day 8 (denied for 1 day)
For some reason, yesterday morning I just couldn’t get up. Princess woke me up at 8.15, She stroked my cock for some seconds and when I got hard She ordered me to get up. However, I fall asleep again and next thing I know is Princess was grabbing my still erect dick and was dragging it, shouting at me at the same time. I got up immediately and let Princess use my dick as a leash in order to lead me to the bathroom. As soon as we got there, She squeezed my balls, together with my (now tiny) dick, and She started spanking me with Her free hand. It was really painful and humiliating at the same time. Actually, the pain on my dick didn’t reside until late in the afternoon. To be honest, I don’t think that Princess was really angry with me, because She was quite cheerful during the rest of the day, so I suppose She was just in the mood to punish me and I just gave Her an extra reason to do it. In any case, being dragged around by my dick was something new to me and it made me feel like a pet or something, whilst feeling the pain during the day was a very efficient way to realize my new role.
I must admit, and that’s something that I have discussed with Princess before, that after I get to cum I’m a quite different person than when I’m being denied for an extended period of time. I still need to be submissive but there is something inside me that reacts against my instincts. During the first weeks of me being Princess’s servant, there were times when I would behave very badly during the two or three days that followed my orgasms. One day, I discussed that with Princess and said to Her that She would either had to accept it and just try to prolong my denial period for as long as possible, or do something about it. When She asked me what She could do, I told Her that She might had to be more strict and authoritative during these days, in order to remind me my position. I know that I was topping from the bottom, but the result justified my action. Today, I know that Princess is inclined to proceed to whatever She thinks is necessary, in order to make me learn to behave during these days. And I believe this strategy has done miracles, since now I am much more concentrated to what Princess wants, even during the periods that I would formerly dare to put my needs beyond my Princess’s.
Last night, when I got home after 10 hours of hard work, there was a surprise waiting for me onto the dinner table. Princess had cooked pea puree and grilled fish. I knew about the fish but I was wondering about the pea puree because neither of us eats it. When I asked Princess She said that it is nutritious and that I had to eat it. When I mentioned that She didn’t like it either She smiled and stated that only I was to eat the pea puree and She would eat just the fish with salad. Two days earlier I would have accepted it much more easily, but yesterday, with my libido being at rather low levels, this was becoming too much for me. However, I tried hard not to misbehave and I just followed the orders. I can’t say that I enjoyed my dinner but I’m glad that I’m being trained that way. It’s becoming more and more natural for me to follow Princess’s orders and that’s something that makes me very proud and happy.
I must have also made Princess happy with my obedience, because as soon as I finished washing the dishes, there was a reward for my good behavior. Princess asked me to remove my pants and She started upon working me loose. She asked me to keep my eyes shut and She started caressing my balls and thighs. She would rarely run Her fingers over my erect dick, giving me shivers of pleasure. At random times She would slap my dick, which was very socking, since I had my eyes shut and I didn’t expect it. Finally, She started stroking my cock too fast and too hard and She didn’t stop even when I started moaning from pleasure (which is a sign for Princess to understand that I’m about to cum). That made me wonder, because it was as if She was determined to make me cum, second day in a row, which is something that hasn’t happened for a very long time. However, Princess stopped, exactly at the moment when I felt my sperm running up, and I ejaculated so much that I can’t say if it was only precum or a ruined orgasm. I don’t think I can count it as an orgasm though, because after that I was extremely horny for a long time, and I spent the rest of the evening cuddling around Princess’s feet, while She was watching TV.
Day 7 (denied for 0 days)
Yesterday I was released from the shackles of sexual denial for the first time after 3 whole weeks (and for the first time after the creation of this blog)!!! I woke up by the feeling of Princess’s hands caressing my already hard cock. The previous night She had already given me a hint on what was going to happen, but after our small crisis (see the latest posts) I wasn’t sure what exactly I was to expect. As soon as I was fully awake, I realized that Princess was completely naked, with Her wonderful tits right next to my face and Her baby pussy (She had shaved it the previous morning) almost dripping by the anticipation. She offered me a passionate kiss and laid on Her back, with Her whole body demanding my complete attention. I had to spend more than 20 minutes licking and kissing every part of Her body (apart from Her precious) before Princess ordered me to make Her cum. There was something on Her voice that made me reconsider all my speculations regarding the course of our relationship. She was so bossy that I instantly realized that we were onto it again! I felt like a huge weight was pulled out of me and I hungrily pushed my tongue inside Her. I did that with great enthusiasm, trying to reach as far as possible, enjoying, at the same time, the saltiness of Her pussy. I continued like that for about 10 minutes before I started licking Her clit, giving Her three massive orgasms in maybe less than three minutes.
At that time, Princess was exhausted and She turned on Her belly. She didn’t ask for something but I already knew what I was supposed to do. I started kissing and licking Her butt, hoping that Princess would let me taste Her sweet hole. This is something I’m rarely allowed to do, just because Princess finds it too tickling. For that reason I always try to approach that spot gradually, although I’m almost never allowed to proceed. So, after I finished licking virtually every inch of Princess’s outer butt, I went on licking the top of Her crack. She didn’t reacted against that, so I felt welcomed to continue even further. What happened next was beyond my wildest dreams. Not only did Princess allow me to taste Her asshole, She soon started shaking Her butt while I was licking. This is something that I had never experienced before and it sent me to heavens. After a while I found myself pushing my nose inside Her hole, sniffing her most private parts, while trying to reach Her pussy with my tongue at the same time.
After a while, Princess had me lay on my back and She mounted my face. I was actually being smothered, with my nose inside Her asshole and my mouth covered by Her pussy, just like in the porn videos I used to watch on the internet. Princess was stroking my dick at the same time. I recall kicking the air, seconds later, but I’m not sure whether it was because I was close to cum or because I was gasping for some oxygen (or maybe both). In each case, the last thing I remember is Princess leaning forward and slapping my rock-hard dick against Her breasts. I came almost instantly, shooting loads of cum virtually all over the place. I was exhausted and Princess continued stroking gently my (still hard) cock until I passed away.
I was feeling incredibly happy during the rest of the day. Princess didn’t push me any further, since She knows that I lose part of my sexual interest and submissive temper as soon as I am relieved. We had a shower, ate breakfast and kept lounging for a big part of the day. During the evening we had a wonderful dinner with a couple of friends, who didn’t fail to notice how happy we both looked. This was a perfect day, spent with my perfect Princess, which I adore more than anything in the world. I feel extremely proud and honored to be Her servant and there is no doubt that She deserves each bit of my devotion.
Just a note: Until today, I used to write my posts to describe the events of each current day. Therefore, I had to begin a new post describing what had already happened during the day (at the time I was writing the post) and add new paragraphs the next day in order to write about additional events that happened after the original post day. I’m not sure how clear this is, the fact is that I had a discussion with Princess and we decided that it would be better if each post would describe the events of the previous day. For example, today (the day that I’m writing the post) is Monday but I’m writing about yesterday’s events (Sunday).
Day 6 (denied for 21 days)
This Saturday could have been any common Saturday from our vanilla period of our relationship. I took some initiatives, for example I volunteered to prepare breakfast, but otherwise, the day passed with me noticing that Princess didn’t give me any orders or instructions nor did She do something D/s related. I’m worried that it might be related to the incident we had last night. On the other hand, we passed most part of the day with other people and that could also be an explanation.
I’m really confused though, because in the morning, Princess shaved Her pussy. She usually does that when She requires some extra attention and when we came back home at night, I was kind of waiting for Princess to ask me to satisfy Her. She didn’t say anything, though, so I decided to just give it a try and go down on Her. I started licking Her but She said She was tired and I’d have to wait until morning. I complied with Her request as I felt my cock getting hard by the anticipation.
Day 5 (denied for 20 days)
Today I once again woke up before Princess. Except that this time I was awake at 6.45 in the morning, which is 1ΒΌ hour before Princess usually wakes up! The funny thing is that I didn’t noticed that and I thought that it was 7.45. I started kissing Princess’s back, moving towards Her butt. When She woke up, She looked at Her watch and asked me “Why are you awake at 6.45 in the morning???”. I was shocked by the revelation and I must have given Her my silliest look because Princess burst out laughing. However, I wasn’t abashed by the incident and continued my quest for bringing Princess to orgasm (at last). This time I had more than an hour to accomplish my goal and nothing would be able to stop me. The taste of Princess’s pussy had such an effect on my cock that the slightest touch would probably make me cum instantly. It didn’t take long before Princess started moaning and, seconds later, She was holding my head between Her thighs with both hands. This is a clear sign that She is about to cum, and every time She does that I have to keep licking Her clit, non stop, and at the same pace. Soon I felt Princess’s body shivering and droplets of cum ran through my jaw. I continued kissing and licking Princess’s body until She fell asleep again. I, on the other hand, was so excited that I wasn’t able to sleep again. I desperately wanted to grab my throbbing cock and stroke it until orgasm. This was the worst impulse I have had during the last 20 days of denial.
An hour later Princess woke up again. I found it strange that She got up almost immediately, without paying any attention to me. However, She was cheerful all morning and I felt very happy and proud, since I knew that the cause of Her mood was probably my service, earlier this morning.
While I was at work, I couldn’t leave the morning events out of my mind. I can’t say that I ceased enjoying my orgasm denial period, but I must admit that each day that passes by, I find it more and more difficult to concentrate to my everyday activities. Today’s instant messages from Princess, though, made my future look brighter:
“Princess: I really enjoyed what you did this morning 
“
“me: I’m very glad to hear this. And I feel proud when I can do anything that makes You happy!“
“Princess: You must know that I’ve missed your cock, don’t you?“
“me: What do You mean You’ve missed it??? You keep Yourself busy teasing me very often!“
“Princess: You know what I mean…“
During the evening, me and Princess had a very personal conversation. There were times where I couldn’t agree and I had to raise my objections. One part of myself was telling me to be obedient, and just accept whatever Princess had to say without any contradictions. And that would be my normal reaction, except that this time we were talking about some serious stuff and I couldn’t deny my opinion on such things. I think that this was the first time that we have ever encountered such a situation, after the change in our relationship, and I believe we were both inexpert on how to handle it. The highest spot was when I was about to lit a cigarette (I already had two more during about an hour) and Princess tried to deny it. I told Her that I was quite stressed and lit it anyway. She didn’t say something more but the disappointment was obvious on Her face. Although we haven’t discussed it yet, I believe we both know that we’ll have to put some limits on Princess’s domination over me. I want to be totally surrender to Her, that will never change, but I wouldn’t want to lose certain aspects of my personality, which I consider to be important. I suppose that every couple that has decided to move to the D/s lifestyle, sooner or later had to encounter such issues. And it would probably be easier if one of us had any prior experience, but now that we’re both “amateurs” we’ll have to pull through as we see fit.
Eventually, we managed to come to an agreement and end our little dispute; that was not a problem. We were always capable of doing this and that’s one of the reasons why we have been together for all these years. However, I’m sure this was a going back to the development of our new relationship. Maybe it was for the best, maybe we needed this kind of shock in order to realize that we might be moving too fast. I only hope that we will be able to overcome whatever happened and get out of it being more experienced and more prepared for when we’ll have to face something similar.
Day 4 (denied for 19 days)
I knew from last night that today I would be allowed to eat Princess’s pussy, after 4 tantalizing days. I don’t know if it was my subliminal desire, the fact is that I woke up before Princess and the first thing that came into my mind was to go under the sheets and wake Her up with a sweet kiss to Her pussy. Indeed, I gave a couple of kisses to Her clitoris and when She woke up, I pushed my tongue deep inside Her. I have to admit that the smell and taste of Princess’s pussy is delicious in the morning, because there are several mixed savours. There is sweat, mixed with cum and morning piss, a combination that makes me want to lick Her all day long! Princess smiled and, although it took Her a while in order to adjust to my licking, She soon started enjoying it. Unfortunately, the damn alarm started ringing, it was time for Princess to get up. She didn’t say anything, though, and for a second, I thought that She would allow me to feel Her squirt in my mouth, before getting up. However, it wasn’t long after I finished my thought that I felt Princess’s foot on my forehead, pushing me away. I knew that I didn’t have another option but to comply, although I deeply wanted to give Her a morning orgasm. I know how She likes it, but I also know that She doesn’t really enjoy it whenever She has thoughts distracting Her.
About half an hour later, minutes before Princess’s departure, a very unfortunate incident happened. I had just prepared a hot cup of coffee when, seconds after my first sip, I heard Princess shouting from the kitchen. She sounded very angry, so I ran fast to see what was going on. Stupid me! I had spilled coffee onto the kitchen bench. Initially, I thought that She was overreacting. I didn’t say anything, though, and Princess continued shouting at me and calling me names. Some months ago, that kind of behavior would have made me mad, and the whole incident would have ended with a big fight. But today, I just apologized and started upon cleaning the bench. She didn’t say anything more, She left the kitchen and, seconds later, I heard Her slamming the door behind Her. I was left there, alone, thinking about what had just happened. Oddly enough, I wasn’t angry with Princess. Instead, I was angry with myself, I felt worthless and I was trying to think of a way to compensate for my miserable behavior.
During the day I was at a meeting, so I wouldn’t be at the office. I couldn’t stop thinking about the coffee incident, and what worried me more was that I couldn’t speak with Princess, see if Her mood had changed or not. About noon, I received a text message from Princess. “I’m sorry for my behavior, I believe I must have overreacted. It’s just that I can’t stand it when you’re so unwary. I hope this will teach you that you need to be more careful from now on“. It made me very happy, I didn’t know if I would later be punished or not, but at least Princess had forgiven me, so I could, at last, concentrate on my meeting. During the lunch break I decided to reply. “It’s me who needs to apologize, I should have been more careful. I just want to be a good and obedient servant, and it makes me sad when I disappoint You like that. I promise, I will do my best to be more careful from now on. I love You!”.
Day 3 (denied for 18 days)
I woke up by the teeth of Princess biting my butt. I could feel my hard cock between my stomach and the mattress and instinctively I started slowly rubbing it against the sheets. Princess noticed that and She didn’t like it at all. She slapped my buttocks really hard and ordered me to lay on my back. “That’s disgusting! You’ll have to get rid of those selfish impulsions of yours, you know that, don’t you? And it better be sooner than later!“, She said, while squeezing my balls at the same time. There was something on Her voice that deterred me from saying anything. Until today, She would say that kind of things with a theatrical tone, just to humiliate me, without really caring whether I was touching myself or not. But this time it was different, She seemed really annoyed with my behavior, which led me to think about the course of our new relationship.
Three months ago, Princess had been shocked by my confession regarding my submissive feelings. Although She found it weird, She was willing to give it a try. And I know that She did it out of love for me, She knew that this was something I wanted to try and She didn’t mind playing Her part. During the first couple of weeks it was exactly like that; it was obvious that She was just acting and I had begun thinking that this would never really work. But gradually Her behavior was changing, She seemed more and more happy with Her new role and She begun having fun while teasing me, punishing me, ordering me to do things and humiliating me. I know that this is exactly what I was wishing for, and I can’t say that I have seconds thoughts, although I must admit that I’m quite stressed by the change in Her behavior. When this all begun I was trying to be as submissive as possible, in order to seduce Princess’s dominant nature. If I wasn’t trying hard enough, the only consequence would be the weakening of Princess’s interest. But this has started to change, Princess is much more excited by all this, and I no longer have to “top from the bottom”, which I admit that I did sometimes at the beginning. Today, it’s definitely Princess the one who leads the progress of our relationship and I feel that I have no other alternative but to comply.
While at work, Princess sent me the usual message:
“Princess: I may see A. after work. It’s not confirmed yet, though“
“me: OK, just let me know in order to arrange to go for a beer or something“
“Princess: Yeah, if you want me to wipe out your balls and make a soup out of them!“
“me: 
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“Princess: Does that sound funny to you??? It was you who asked for it. Now you have to face it!“
“me: OK, I’m deeply sorry! Besides, I was just kidding, you know I would never arrange something without my Princess’s prior permission“
“Princess: That’s better“
So now Princess can do whatever She likes and just make a statement of it. I, on the other hand, have to ask for Her permission before arranging anything. Normally I should be offended or something, but my cock throbbing inside my pants has a completely different point of view!
Day 2 (denied for 17 days)
Today was a hard day for both me and Princess. Princess returned home later than usual, after a long and tiring day in the office. We didn’t communicate much during the day, just a message to tell me that She was very busy and that She didn’t know when She would be back.
I, on the other hand, had to deal with my own problems, primarily related to my ever increasing sexual frustration. Not being allowed any release for the last 17 days is making it hard for me to concentrate to my everyday activities. 17 days may not be a record or something (which, by the way, is 28 days) but it certainly is more than the usual one-to-two weeks of denial. However, it’s not that I’m desperate to cum, I’m used to enjoy these prolonged periods of sexual denial and, sometimes, even hope for them to continue. While on denial I come to appreciate more some simple things like a touch, a kiss, a sexy outfit, a promising glance. I also enjoy more my submissiveness and fall into the subspace more often. I seek for more reasons to do things for my Princess, I take more initiatives, I constantly seek for Her presence and I am willing to satisfy even Her most extreme wishes. But what I enjoy the most, are those moments when Princess decides to use me as Her sexual servant. Seeing the lust on Her face, hearing Her groans and the thought that it’s me who has the privilege to cause Her satisfaction, is far more fulfilling than any orgasm I could ever had myself. And when She is done and throws me away, as if as I was just a dildo, I feel so humiliated, and so frustrated at the same time, that I keep hanging around her feet like a dog.
Princess has had Her period during the last three days. Therefore, it’s not the denial of my sexual relief that frustrates me, it is the denial of the greatest gift that She grants me, that of her orgasms. Princess suggested one day that She should have me satisfy Her even during these days. “What is the purpose of having a sexual servant if he can’t perform whenever I wish“, she said. I know She didn’t mean it, the whole purpose of the statement was to humiliate me, and, maybe, stress me. However, now that I think about it again, I’m close to hope that She will one day realize Her “threat”. That strong is the impact of my 17 days denial to my thoughts and feelings!
In the evening, after we had dinner with Princess, She was complaining that She was very tired, so I took the initiative to give her a full body massage. I admit that I have no idea how to give a proper massage, what I usually do is follow my instinct and let Princess’s reactions guide me. I think She enjoyed it, though, since it lasted for more than an hour, until Princess decided that She had enough and asked me to stop. I started with Her back and the butt followed. At random times I would stop in order to kiss Her or lick Her, which would cause me an instant erection. During the last hour, I focused on Her legs. This is something I love to do, especially kissing and licking Her soles or sucking Her toes. It may be the smell, which I used to find annoying, but now I find it really erotic. Or it may be the fact that it’s something that gives me a strong sense of total submission.
Just before we got to bed, Princess asked me to remove my underpants and gave me the most extreme teasing session until today. She was sitting on the sofa, wearing her pajamas and watching TV while I was standing beside her naked. Although She never asked explicitly not to cum, my erect dick was facing her and I wouldn’t want to face the consequences of cumming on her face. Besides, I never get to cum before Princess is completely satisfied, therefore I knew from the beginning that She wouldn’t let me anyway, no matter how much I might want it. And I didn’t cum, indeed, but I was brought to the edge countless times. Princess would move Her fingers from the shaft to the head so slowly that I was almost constantly on the edge without being able to cum. I also produced a quite big amount of precum, which Princess would spread on my thighs. Suddenly, She quizzed my balls hard enough to lose some of my erection and She finished the session with some heavy dick slapping which lasted for what seemed an eternity to me.
While on bed, Princess was caressing my balls while I was on my back and I’m sure I fall asleep while having a hard-on.
